i love my friends so freaking much. i would honestly not be here if it wasnt for them.. they are the most amazing people and i care so much and if anything ever ever ever happened.. i dont know what i'd do. i love you.

never take anything for granted. anything. any friend, boy, money, family.. anything.. i have a feeling im being taken for granted, he just wont know what its like to really know what hes got. and that sucks for him.

my grandmother died today.. it was crazy.. she had been staying in clays room since hurricane katrina and we moved her to a hospice yesterday, and yesterday she told the nurses she was only staying there one day. amazing.. she knew. the nurse called my mom today around 4:40 and said she was decreasing or something and so me and her go and get my moms sister and there was traffic and when we got to the hospice place my mom asked the nurse how she was right when we walked in the room and she said she expired and my mom just bursted into tears, therefore i did. it was insane. i've never seen anyone dead, or lose anyone close.. so its weird. but shes not in pain anymore, she had pancreas cancer and hurt every single day. its better, shes with her husband.. :)

dont flatter yourself sweetheart, your nothing special.

life can be so tough sometimes..

some people are so stupid.

"never take it seriously.. cause if you never take it seriously, you never get hurt, and if you never get hurt, you always have fun." - almost famous

anyways, im done writing alot in here.

i went to church tonight.. im so ready to go to breakthru.. and the fall retreat.. and i really wanna go skiing during spring break but i dont know..

i really needed that tonight though

so... amazing day today.

PJ pep rally.. fun fun.. football game vs brookhaven.. won.. arrows 2-1 :) yeah yeah

we have a little after half time and went to waffle house, then out to bridgewater to this unbelievable house. then left, came back here.. i went to seans :) and i had an amazing time there. like i really did.. it was the most comfortable i've felt around him, ever. we talked about his grandfather.. which he never would talk about.. and how his mom wont let him go see him while hes in the hospital. it was crazy though. realll sweet.

and uh i hear that brandon has been texting and calling amanda.. hmm, who dated my oldest brother, who is 23. oh, and amanda is 23 too. and brandon is 18. 18. so yeah thats cool..

but i had a great day, hope you did tooooo

had a good day...

met up with sway and ber at applebees little while ago.. brandon was there :) came to talk to me.. he was real sweet.. met some of his football friends.. he has a game saturday somewhere far away and leaves in the morning.. hm

then went to starbucks then to berrys

"temptation is only a sin if it is yeilded to" - mrs. stuart :) hahah  i dont think i did very good on her test today..

pray for christina and her family <3

happy birthday ellen!

so sunday.. we layed out for a little while, pitched a tent.. just normal crazy stuff..

monday went and ate sushi..

today i went to the volleyball game..

its the way that he makes you feel, its the way that he kisses you, its the way that he makes you fall in love..

yeah, i miss it. i actually miss puttin up with all his stuff cause i LOVE being with him. if he would only grow up. ask me why why why, yeah.. well i know him ALOT more than anyone else. alot. we've been threw so much and its amazing that i still care. why does everyone take for granted how much someone cares about them.. but yeah..

"lately ive been remembering all the good times we had together.. you have no idea how much that scares me. because i know if i forget all the bad times, the times you've broke my heart and the nights you've made me cry, i know if i forget those times that i'll fall in love with you all over again. and i dont think my heart can take that."